why?!

Does your mother step in & protect you or is your dad abusing all of you & your mom is just worn out now? You are old enough to file a complaint against him even though you feel you cant make it on your own right now. Do you have any friends that you could share an apartment with & make a future goal together with getting out? If your employed, even parttime, you'd have a fighting chance to rid yourself of this abuse & move on.

Your father is not going to change his behavior cause the answers probably lie in his past history, that he wouldnt acknowledge, the way he was raised, which is escalating your other issues that your battling with.

Gotta start with one problem, then see it through to conclusion & then go to the next problem. I'd start w/gaining employment, then finding an apt. w/a friend, you can research that online & find how much rentals costs in your area or further away from him.

An employer does not need to know all that your dealing with & if you have access to a bus/transit system to get you backnforth then that makes things more possible.

All my strengths & keep talking about your feelings.

April

he is abusing me verbally mostly but he does get physical sometimes. my mom does nothing. i tried to press charges when he told me to kill myself but the police did not do ne thing nd neither did my mom. she left him a while back but they got back together a month later. this has gone on a lot in my life. nd every time i think she is finally done putting up i do not have ne one tht i can live with besides my cousin but i feel bad asking her to let me stay there with her nd her boyfriend. i dnt have a job but i am on ssi for my ptsd bipolar and depression.

i would like to get a job nd i can bc i can make so much money nd still keep my ssi. i jus dont kno where i could work tht i could handle everything on top of all the shit in my head. its a lot.

nd thanx very much for the ideas =]

Correct ssi will deduct any overtures. How about parttime? that way you can get out of the house for a bit while you figure out other options for places to live w/someone else. How about Lowes, Petsmart, or clothing store, if your interested in that sort of thing. Fast food chains are kill, they wore my 20yr. old son out when he was 18, he works for BestBuy now, computer geek.

Your mom is stick hon & is why she stays, its probably easier for her right now, but again you dont have to, if you can start putting into affect a plan, one step at a time. Would be wise for you & mom to have a plan together & move out.

I'll be thinking of you.