Who else wants to throw a fit with me tonight??? Warning there WILL most definately be swearing and quite probably a few physical impossibilities!!!!!

HOT DAMN I FEEL THE SAME F"ING WAY. I am so sorry you have to put up with so much DAMN shit from a ASS HOLE. They think they are so much of a damn man to do what they have done and still smile in our faces.

That's a good one!! It made me LOL.

YAY!!! Hey Chell!!! They surely are Assholes!!!! I wish just once, I could laugh in his face or make him shake when I come into the room!!!! GRRRRRR

I knew there had to be more than just me wanting to YELLL tonight!!!! Sometimes, time outs and deep breaths don't do a damn thing but make me more irritated that I'm counting to breath!!!! Sometimes, I just want to throw a damn fit!!!!

You will, I truely believe that. YOU will GET the last laugh!!! I do HATE son-of-bitches like him.

HELL yea!!!! I want to just BITCH all the way to tomorrow night around this time. I want to scream WTF is going on in this world. BUT people around this house don't like swearing, LOL. So I'm joining you.

Thank you FOR this post

Suzee, sometimes you just gotta YELL - it helps get all that nasty toxic stress out of your system. I have always thought the justice leaned more to favor men than women. I believe it stems from WAY, WAY back when women were considered property, at a lower level than a dog! Men have a way of justifying any deviant behavior they chose to have, and women are expected to shut up and take what's given to them regardless of how the women feel about it!
I am SO grateful for the women's movement back in the 60s & 70s!! If it wasn't for those women, it would be even harder for us today. It's been a tough road for women; children haven't had it much easier. Back in the early 70s, when I reported my step-father's abuse, the goal was to put my sister and me back in the same house with him! CAN YOU IMAGINE!!!!!!! What kind of justice was served? He got only 3 YEARS PROBATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got a lifetime of HELL!!!!
Yell, Suzee, Yell! You've earned that right. Anyone who was molested or abused has earned the right to yell. I HATE this life that I was given; I wanted nothing more than to have a 'NORMAL' life like my friends had. Wouldn't it be wonderful if we could start over?
Suzee, keep lots of notes throughout this whole nasty business with your ex. Do NOT give up ANYTHING. ESPECIALLY YOUR SELF! Your ex & his lawyer can bitch all they want - you are under NO OBLIGATION to agree to anything. If you can record conversations where your ex talks about his treatment of you, then do it. Do anything you need to in order to protect YOU and your children.
Yes, Suzee, go ahead and yell. It's good for all of us to do that from time-to-time. It's definitely better then hurting yourself or others. :)
Hang in there, sweetie! You have lots of support here. And lots of love!

Oh Suzee no reason to be sorry! I would absolutely love to yell and scream about my frustrations! My fucking frustration is this damn fucking urge to self harm is really draining me, I don't know what the fuck to do to make it go the fuck away it's so hard fight the fucking urge when your so upset! People always tell me that it will get easier the more you fight it and as time passes well let me tell you I don't find it getting any fucking easier or that it's less intense at all! I am learning so much in DBT and am using the skills I learn but even when I use the skill guess what is still there, the fucking urge is still there! It's so damn fucking frustrating! It's so fucking hard sometimes and just fucking draining to put forth the effort but I know it will be all well worth it in the long run but wish it was a short run!

Thanks Suzee for your thread it definitely feels good to scream and yell and swear hehehe!

Love you Suzee
Biggest hugs ever!

Thank you ladies!!! It DOES feel good!!! Sometimes I am exhausted from everything and I just hang on by a thread!!! I also feel so stupid sometimes and that isn't fun at all either!!!!

I just wish more than anything, I had my Mom here!!!!! I WANT MY MOMMY!!!!!!

sad mad tears, Suzee

WOW this thread is helping Suzee and I tonight!! I just love this SHIT. Way to Go princess. Let it al out!!!

Suzee I sorry you missing your mom, but She is in your heart and on your mind all the time.

I love you
Big understanding hugs

Thank you Chell!!! Can I be completely selfish and say....... I FLIPPEN LOVE LOVE LOVE GETTING TO TALK TO YOU TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :0)

We have missed you so much and it's so very cool!!!

I love you too, SO MUCH, Suzee :0)

Do you think you feel anything other than what he wants you to feel right now. This is what he wants from you. He is in control of you and your emotions. If you want to fight him legaly fight him with control and dignity. Take what is comming to you and work your ass off for the rest of what you want. Don't let him piss you off because of the shit he has pulled. Be a better person and provider for your family or yourself because of him. The lessons you have learned and the bullshit you have delt with. Live your life like you have never lived it before. Make more money than you have before, start a business, get a great job and then quit that one for an even better paying job. Don't stop. Don't stop. It's about you. It's about what you can do for yourself. Don't let him in your mind. He is not paying rent. Every time you think about the shitty things he has done, is doing and will do in the future, stop yourself and do something to better yourself.

You will be the one to have success and the future in your hands. He is holding out for a miracle from the court system and you have YOUR mind in charge and that is more than he will ever have.

Sincerely,
Ashly

OK Here I GO!!!! AGAIN!!!!

Dear lying abuser POS SOB! YOU Laugh that laugh, the one you laugh when I've "fallen" as you've lifted me of balance and gave a little shove, knowing I would most likely fall. You laugh that laugh still but you need to know some things!!! I WILL SUCCEED!!!! i WILL succeed in living well and happy and true!!!!! You cannot touch my heart so quit trying!!! YOU WILL NOT KILL ME!!!! So stop trying, because it won't happen. My heart is stronger than it's ever been!!!

We WILL BE OK!! Even though that will piss you off to no end, I don't care!!! Get ready to see how wonderful things are here without you and your abuse and your threats to kill me, to hurt me, to rape me!!!!! I am determined through every minute of struggle I experience, so that it makes me that much stronger!!! Living without you will be a dream come true!!

I just wonder what you are going to have to say for yourself when judgement day comes...... I don't think your shit's gonna fly there!!!!

All my disgust, SUZEE!!!!!!