It sounds like all of you are living in a nightmare. When that hurtful and abusive behavior is tolerated and exuses are given for the deliberate hate, spite, that's sown, it only blackens a persons, of any ages, soul.

That heart sinking terror and trauma truly warps a persons mind. Healing from such horrors can only reach so far. Oh, and the triggers once a healing is in effect... Sorting through the damage takes an, at times, overwhelming amount of dedication to understand, and know, yourself to accept why, and how, this is your life. You're screwing up your kids. Stop tolerating it. Your son sounds lovely. I can see your other two as darling. You obviously have the heartfelt love and nurturing that cultivates awesomeness. It also sounds like the other half and in laws are resentful of and spew evil in the light of goodness. Whether they realize it or not is not your responsibility or problem to solve, to understand. That is their own personal journey they will seek if or when they are capable of venturing through their heart and soul. IF they have the want.

I can relate to some of what you've described from personal experience. I am not going to get into specifics here so feel free to send a message anytime. I check these boards every day or two. It is apparent that you are handling this situation as best as you can with what you have at this time, just know that everything will get better.

I have asked my family like my mother, asked them to at least let me vent and that I made my bed and they don't want to hear me complain. I have know one to talk to, to verify my concerns when the thought of having all my bills paid for a year straight by "bulk" pay when we get our taxes back is hard for a single mom to turn down when u have little potential for a higher pay rate than $7.25 an hour with three kids. When I move in Fubuary to rent @ $550 at the lowest, electric at $100 , water $50, propane $50 averaged that is $750 that is 26 hours a week with no money to pay a babysitter, or gas, car, car insurance, toilett paper and so one and that is with out tax taken out. @ $206 a month for a $2 per child pay. Oh yeah Internet for school @ min $35 makes minnimum almost $1,000 a month. No help and because how can I prove a thing in court to prove a thing when I can't get a minute away from him unless I am home and he leaves. Have no car to leave when he leaves. And have NO friends to help.

He won't let me record him on my phone, he takes it. If I cannot prove the abuse, he will get some form of custody, I won't be their for my kids then. I can not leave. I need help finding a way. I cannot leave them.

My plan now is to teach my son how to record it on one of the toys that record, but I do not know if that counts in court. I do have my son to testify, but the other two are to young, and think everyone who does not give them candy is mean.

I don't want the state to take them because I am poor and give them to his mom because both of them live on the same 20 acres he would get my babies, and she does foster care for the state so they would defiantly give them to her if I could not afford them. I have no one to move in with for a short time, I just don't know what to do. I feel like the only one in this pert ocular rock and hard spot.

I can't believe I moved out here , by far the STUPIDEST thing anyone has EVER done.

I was/am a single mother. Divorced. It is a major adjustment and a network of supportive people, organizations, is such a huge comfort. I really understand. I really do. I do not mind sharing personal situations through messaging. I chuckled when I read your comment about your toddlers calling everyone mean if not given candy. Absolutely.

I have not checked my inbox yet. Oh the stories I could tell you. Unbelievable really tough lessons. My stubborn self insisted to see my way through things. Ha, proved to be a less than a brilliant idea sometimes.

You are not alone.

I do not know how to message u? I am really bad with tec things, never had them growing up. Never had video games, iPods, mp3, and so on:). On a small phone screen it is difficult :/

Just to let you know, I sent a message.