Baby. I am SO sorry she did that to you and no one is listening to you. You deserve better, I know I say that a lot, but it's truer than true, baby. I wish I could hold you in my arms and wipe away the tears and pain and all the lies they've told you. You are beautiful and precious and I love you more than you will ever know. We may be going through hell right now, but one day we will be free. I pray it comes quickly, love. Suicide has not looked this appealing ever before for me, either. I am here for you, lovely. Just PM me. <3

I am so sorry but that will not help you at this time in your pain. I know its hard when the person that you love doesnt seem to show that love and concern back, I have thought of suicide many times in the last week. But I try to be strong and hold on until the feeling goes away. I am not sure if i will ever be normal but i am goinf to try. You and i both have a life to live that no one should makes us take away. But remember it is hard the people that it has never happened to they have a hard time dealing with that kind of pain. In their mind though they dont mean any harm they think you should just get up and move on. But sometimes that so hard. some days you cry some days you cant move your body hurts for no reason, you get stomach aches. all these things are daily ordeals for us. But to them its just something that happened like a car accident or breaking a dish. I dont know how to deal with that at times either. But just know if you ever want to talk. please reach out dont go this alone becuase your not. I am here if you to talk ever.

Thank you so much both of you. It can be so hard sometimes. I'm away from her some for now. Things are just as bad now admittedly but at least I'm away from her. I'm planning on leaving in June. I still don't know what I'm going to do or where it's going to be but I'm gone. I'm starting over completely.

I am thinking about the same thing. New place and new people. Maybe it can help us both.

crazyChristlova_313~ Please know suicide is never the answer as you are way to precious to leave us..Many love you and I'm sure you know that..Sometimes are feelings just say something different..Many of us feel not so good sometimes and things feel really bad but, know there is always a solution and always a brighter day looking for you..I know this as I have lived a life of abuse and pain and there is and will always be sun shine at the end of a rainbow waiting for all of us..Maybe not a pot of gold but, we will have sun shine again I do promise you that..When you are in pain please come here and talk to us..If I am around I will be here for you and help you by doing what I do best and that is listening and sharing with you what I know has worked for me in my journey of darkest..We all have something to give here as we all have similar hearts and souls..I just feel it..We all want to be loved and we all have so much to offer someone else only if they would just give us a chance..The right someone..Your day will come and I believe it with all my heart..HANG IN THERE..IF YOU CAN'T FOR YOU FOR US..I WILL THINKING OF YOU AND PRAYING FOR YOUR SAFTY..With love and light!!

Oh I'm so sorry your Mom did that to you~!!! That's not a mother.

Mine isn't either. I decided to come up here after 2 years of not talking to her, and everything's been a disaster. :(

Last night, I got suicidal again for the first time in a while! I don't know what to do. It hurts so bad when your own family is so terrible to be around, and you can't count on them for support.

Feel free to write me if you'd like!

Precious2~ I hope and pray you are okay today..I hate that you hurt so bad and that you found someone last night to talk to..Reach out and have some numbers available to you for when and if that happens again as there are people out there that can and will help..I'm here for you if you ever need someone!!

crayChristlova_313~Sorry you feel you are in a hole again..Would you like to share whats going on?? I like that attitude that you shall dig your self out again..Nothing like positive thinking to keep you moving forward and changing the mind set!! I'm proud of you!!

its not fair that happened to you..and suicide is not the answer...im glad your here...everyone on this feed I have talked too and have helped me...they are good people..and you are a good person..we may not have much but we all have eachother here...and we all care about eachother...

Your mom needs to meet my mom and go shopping together. (Quasi-"The Breakfast Club")

Only for your hope, though I had and have issues, I made it. You can too. PLEASE make sure you have a true and practical plan. If your plan includes "Maybe", then reexamine it. There's always a better way. You're "Good Idea" needs to include you BELIEVE in it and it's BEST for you.

Oh, I was a cutter too. I learned why and stopped cutting. My reasons do not matter, but you need to find out why. Healing is good.

I would share, but I'm not even sure I know what's going on anymore. Everyone is scared that I am going to try to kill myself again and I don't blame them-it's not like their reasons are unfounded, right? I mean, I tried it once, why not assume I will again? I am so petrified of myself and what I will do to myself, to the others that love me. I don't want to break anyone else's heart. I didn't want to hurt anyone the first time. I wanted to stop hurting them. They deserve better, and don't say I deserve better, because I don't. I deserve far, far worse. I am just so tired of not being able to do anything and then when I can do something, not being able to do it right. I should be better than this, but I am not. I cannot handle the pressure. Cutting myself relieves it and no one understands that. I am trying to stop. I hope I can, eventually.

i feel the same way sometimes...that I want to relieve them of me..that everyone would be better off If I wasnt around..here, as well as in real life..when one person attacks me, I get the whole world is better off thing going..but then I think of all the damage I would leave here if I did leave, or end it...and I couldnt do that to people who didnt deserve any of the bullshit I bring them or would bring them...the guilt I would cause these people whos only mistake is caring about me..all we can do is try to do best by us...try to find some way to make ourself happy..and if we just cant be happy then not be so damn miserable..try to take pleasure and joy in the little things...at least thats what im doing..

Oh Ladies I feel your pain.. I really do and my heart goes out to you for your healing in your way..There is a way and a timing for all and I pray that yours is soon..Won't quit shared she found her way and I did to as well..I fall from time to time but, to me that is life..Life is not perfect and either am I ...I'm human and I make mistakes and most of all the ones I make are usually the hardest on self..I don't hurt others I usually go after myself and that is something I had to learn how to stop..I felt so bad inside that I was not loved and needed and cared for and that is all I ever wanted..That is all I ever wanted from people that I thought should of gave it to me but, the key here is that did not have it to give me..They were so sick that they only could do what they knew how to do and what they had to give and that was not much..So, that is how the cycle began in my life..That is how the pain and illness began in my life.. I had to figure that out and once I did and had that awareness, change started to take place..You see I'm not here to blame or shame anyone for what they should of or could of down different...We all do our very best in this life with what we are brought in this world with..I know I did and my kids suffer as well..I did not and never wanted them to hurt and they do..You see somewhere somehow the cycle has to stop and someone has to step up and stop it..I did and for that I'm so proud of myself..I pray with all my heart and soul it will continue and from years from now my family jeans with be happier and healthier...